regrets

i am happy-go-lucky. i never look back and think what i could have done better. i never dwell on the past. now, is the most important thing to me. i don't regret anything.

but i do. it seems that the older i get, the more regrets i have. i should've done better in school, i shouldn't have quit that job, i should've waited longer. i think regrets has a lot to do with the present that i dwell in. of course, if it was in the future then it wouldn't be a regret.

you see, the reason i'm writing this is because today, i found out something. an issue about a missing $2000. normally, i wouldn't care about this. in a way, i'm glad it's not a bigger amount but it's not the money. it could very well be $20,000. as i said, it's not the money, rather it's the way it was lied about. after all the promises of being transparent, i've been lied to. my kid was used as an excuse to hide that money. and that pisses me off bad.

well, im still pissed and i can't seem to make a coherrent paragraph. this is giving me a headache.